I am not sure if what I do connects anyone else spiritually, but I have found that to find spiritual connection I need to embrace myself. In the Osha, the Yoruban religion, or as it’s considered colloquially “The Religion” when the sign Ojuani – 11 (number in cowry shells) is part of the reading, the person being consulted is told to please hug themselves. This is one of the most famous signs. By fame, it is because individuals are told to please do specific things for the remainder of their lives to help stop the sufferring they collect, and accept the beautiful things happening in their lives. This sign is of the most, absolutely most beautiful, loving person one may ever meet. The hug comes from knowing that you have done nothing wrong, that life is life, that something is happening, there is a reason why, but the way you gather water, through a, let’s say a rattan basket— those days are over. This sign, as it sometimes shows up, is saying “stop thinking as you are thinking,” “life is worth your presence,” “people need you,” “you do not go unnoticed.” And there is always more.

In an effort to understand my evening, my day, my existence right now I drew a card from a deck I have Keepers of the Light Oracle Cards. The card, which I did not draw—it was the last card I had and face up which means it’s the card—was Horus, representing a Cosmic Gateway. There is psychic awarenes, there is foresight, there is an understanding of what is real and what is not. Horus can tell the difference between ego and reality. [Your] connection to the universe is beyond compare.

Then I went on to draw a Thoth tarot card. And that was facing up as well—4 of disks, or Power. Excellent matreial power, wonderful change, but it stops there. It’s Sun in Capricorn. The Lord of the Earth. In the world of my life this is “You and I.”